Hey
I'm 20 years old and recently found out I'm diagnosed with depression and anxiety
Never thought I will attach myself with this big terms
Now when I found out that I am depressed nothing make sense ,constant hopelessness, feeling guilty , can't experience what joy or pleasure looks like idk if i ever felt happy anyway
I remember being in relationship and the only why I have been in relationships is not love i understood all i ever wanted was to be seen to be heard and idk If I even loved my ex's I just wanted to be loved
I thought I just have to keep going everyone is feeling same but most of the time I use to notice everyone have a motivation which I don't have
So I forced myself to work hard in my school in my clg and finally got the job which I worked so hard for but idk why I'm not happy anymore.
The real problem is now when I experienced failure multiple times I don't want to work anymore I feel like it's better like this then to work hard and to get fail because I failed so many times in my life didn't got the collage I worked hard for ,my boyfriend broke up with me because he found a good replacement in a week and I got replaced by someone i invested so much in but though I am okay with that after sometime
So now I'm ruining everything not ruining , ruined everything and still I don't feel a thing
But somedays it gets loud and so loud that idk how to keep going like this
I m so scared of failing that I am giving up on my dreams and I don't want to but I don't even know how to keep going
The things is I don't even feel like ending my life I like this I am fine where I am I feel fine this became my normal
It's a normal thing when you are suffering from depression.... but you are not alone... there are a lot of people suffering from same situation don't lose your self belief.... It's okay if thing are not good right now... but the time will change don't lose hope.... I think you have to visit a psychologist or psychiatrist they will help you to recover and you will feel better with their guidance.... your health should be your 1st priority... Wishing you a good night....a new day with new hope is waiting for you
Hi! I will try to help you, your story really touched me. You wrote, "I think too much." I guess that's what it's all about. The stuttering is probably from anxiety, too. Overeating to relieve anxiety. Then I guess you have to work on your anxious thoughts. Write them all down on paper, unload them. It'll make you feel better. Then start to systematize the thoughts: can you argue with some of the thoughts? Are they not all too exaggerated? (these are questions for you to ask yourself)
Hi! I want you to feel my support! You put yourself first!!! I care about what you say and do! You think a lot about the future, it makes you anxious. Apparently you have a lot of anxiety, you have to eat to relieve it. So you need to work on working through your plans. What's your problem with your future plans?
It's normal to be worried!!! I think all the time now too, because I'm focused on my problems. Start dealing with your problems and it will go away.
Hello, friend in distress. I suffer from depression too!!! but I manage to manage myself. I lie down and talk to myself, dialog and argue with my negative thoughts. I realize that you have to "pull" yourself up...and you try to "pull" yourself up!!!!
I, too, suffer from depression and so I felt it necessary to support you. Don't be frightened by the manifestations of depression. It needs to be treated. And work on your thoughts. I often "pull myself out".