i feel my heart is loveless and more ruthless

I feel like I don't have a heart left, I don't feel much about love and loving and being passionate and being enthusiastic about anything, I'm dull, almost not alive, just doing the necessary house chores as a part of family responsibilities, I findnit difficult to sleep, and if I sleep I sleep alot too much, I feel suffocated, I feel very uneasy in myself sometimes, anything and everything tires me up. I'm tired of everything, I'm ready to give up on everything, life doesn't really attracts me or doesn't lure me anymore, It's more like a curse to me. Even the problems of my mother irritates me and frustrates me more than anything, while I know that it's not the right feeling, I have the least interested in anything. I like doing absolutely nothing, I do procrastinate alot alot to keep my mind so engaged and bsy and just to not think and stay alive with those cheap dopamine surges. I feel like everyday I'm getting more destroyed, I'm dying more.