I love God with all my heart but I hate religion

My mother uses it to control me even more. I'm in my senior year of high school, and mom doesn’t want me to go to college.

She has changed so much since she became religious. it used to be sad before, after dad left us... Now it’s horrible. She cried a lot, now all she does is praying and fasting. Most nights she confiscates my phone and if she imagines that I’ve smoked or if i come home two minutes later, she cuts my internet too. I often have to finish my homework in the bathroom at school before classes. I never expected I would have a life like this when we moved here... I wish we could go somewhere else, to a larger city where there are more normal people. I have to sneak food into my room cause apparently religion is against snacks or something (I’m not allowed to eat at Mcdonalds cause unhealthy)... every day I’m shamed for eating too much, my own mother calls me fat and says no woman will like me like that. She forbids me to talk to father and reads all my messages on the phone. I had to hide a Christmas present he sent me, but she suspected and grounded me for a week. My friends at school think I’m a crank cause I never go to parties with them, and I haven’t watched half of the movies they talk about. Mom bans me from watching “gory” things. I feel like being sheltered from life! it’s insane, my friend said my mom is being brainwashed... She calls me a sinner whenever I try to argue with her. I want to go to a normal college, not a religious one. How does one stay strong through this?