I'm a 11 year old female, I don't care if nobody believes me and I don't care if people think I'm dramatic I just need to get this out of my chest nobody knows about this. Not my mom not my dad not my bro not my sis not my friends. Nobody. Nobody but one. My bestfriend.

When I was 9 I was just horrendous.i was stupid, stubborn and pretty much everything bad. So my mom got me this tutor. She was a 52-54? Year old woman. For a 54 year old she was quite built and like energetic. For the first few weeks, it was okay. I was learning stuff.. Getting along with her, but then she started locking the door to my room every time we do a session/study there. Then one day, she started to caress my thigh and told me her feelings.. Honestly just writing this disgusts me. I was disgusted at the time but I didn't say anything because I can't say no or say anything in that fact, to anybody. I was just pretty much antisocial, that kept happening and she kept calling me babe and shit I was basically her GF even though I didn't even say or do anything.. but my mom didn't know that. She just thought I was studying. Alot of stuff happened that I prob can't say and don't want to say but yea she did alot of stuff. To the point where I would pray to God or something to give her like a car accident or smth. Those were my genuine prayers. One time I was home alone and she was coming soon. Our sessions were at like 12pm, I sat on the couch, cried and just started full on sobbing while praying to God, some alone the line of "please please please make her not come. Mom isn't home I'm scared.. Please please come I don't want to be alone. Make her not come please please. Please". And like God actually heard me she didn't come and I never felt so relief in my life. Those God awful 13 or so minutes of my life just staring at the window of my front door just praying, crying and begging she wouldn't come felt like an eternity. Thank god she was fired. But not at the reason you might think, she was fired because she had some argument or something with my mom. This memory remained clear as day in my mind for the last 2 years. I just wanna think, and imagine. What if she was a male, what would she do..?

I can’t understand if this is because she needs time or because of my own circumstances. My friend has recently moved in with her lesbian friend. They’ve been together since high school, and it was no secret to anyone. The three of us went to the same university, we’ve had the best time of our lives and went through thick and thin together. I’m heterosexual, but it never mattered, for it’s not our habit to discuss personal life. This summer, my friend had a terrible row with her parents, who are very religious and don’t accept anything that’s beyond their limited views. As a result of it, my friend left the house, she said it was once and for all. She cut off all contact, changed her phone number, and seemed depressed. I arrived to comfort her, but her girlfriend made me feel alienated. We were never close with her gf, my friend was the glue that held us three together. I guess, while they both were open with me and I was single, it made no difference to me. But I’m in my first relationship with a man now, and I was maybe too quick to share my joy with my friend that night when I was at her girlfriend’s house. Their reaction was bewilderment, and I thought I felt a tinge of reproach. Was it because it wasn’t the right time to talk about me? Or were they so used to me being single for decades that they could never imagine me with anyone? Or is it simply this difference between us that never mattered before, but suddenly matters now? I’ve called my friend many times since, and she told me that we should switch to exchanging emails for a while, for her “to see if we can take it further”. What? We spent years horsing around together, and now she can’t dare to see my face? I don’t want to lose her! Any ideas?

I have a girlfriend.(I’m gay)We’re abt 3 month together. Before we knew each other for a month or smth,we didn’t rush and became a couple. At first everything was super good first month and a half. Then one day I suddenly wake up with the most anxious feeling ever abt her like my brain started to feel that we already broke up,there were not specific triggers. And she didn’t do anything bad or smth that could hurt me. It lasts for not long for maybe a week and I spoke it out w my gf. I was crying without any reasons and having this feeling abt her. After that I rarely feel anything towards her. I means sometimes there are happy moments and stuff where I realize I love her but the situation doesn’t let Met live normally. I also have mental problems and currently do therapy. I’m also a very big overthinking and often have panic attacks. Also I noticed that after this situation with the feeling my mental health became worse. So I am connection the weird feeling with it. I’m not very emotional,prefer not to cry in front of people and I don’t feel anything even towards my family members. Idk what it could be(

want also to add that before I have been in a relationship for 2 years with other girl and she was emotionally abusing and manipulating me,then left me not that good. So I think it could be also this.

What do u think it could be?

I think I am suffering from anxiety cuz after any such a moment occur like not getting treated right for etc. I feel a rage pressure inside my stomach like corticoids acting. I don’t know but this triggers my addictions. What should i do i need a person to be able to talk express my gf is not the one she don’t have time, moreover, I am not able to talk with her cuz major of my anxiety arouses due to her.