Good day everyone.
I really don't know what to do anymore, I am so tired.
I am a beautiful girl so I have been told plenty times by numerous people yet I don't see it or feel it.
I am skinny, not so bad skinny but skinny nevertheless. People always says I am too skinny and I need to add weight which I agree with.
But the moment someone says oh you have added weight I find myself doing relentless exercise.
My stomach flat but for me it's not enough, it can't get flatter than that but I still find myself critising.
My sister is on the bigger side, she doesn't have flat stomach but she doesn't care, she loves herself like that.
I moved to a new city to stay with my sister who is in college. The whole place different. I see girls ten times bigger than me yet they wear crop tops and smile happily.
I can't wear a crop top with thinking my stomach is big which is not.
I can't control these thoughts no matter how hard I try neither can I control the automatic exercise that follows. My sister says she will beat me up if she catches me doing exercise because I am already too skinny.
It's so bad I can't take pictures or do videos like other girls because I will watch that video or stare at the picture over and over again feeling like my hands are long, my legs are too skinny, I don't have flesh.
But the frustration is that the moment I add a little weight, food loses appeal and exercise is my new friend.
I want to add weight but I feel even if I did I won't still love the way I look.
How can I do stop this, I want to feel good and take picture without worrying or deleting them.
I just want to feel that I am beautiful, I am tired of hearing people say it and not believing it myself.
How do i do that? 😭
Sending you the warmest hug right now! Life throws these curveballs sometimes, and it's perfectly okay to feel overwhelmed
Seeking professional help isn't just okay - it's a sign of wisdom. Taking care of ourselves should always be the priority. Think about joining some local support groups or wellness communities - the connections you make there could be life-changing. When things get tough, I find that keeping a gratitude journal helps shift perspective
Focus on one day at a time, one breath at a time. Why not try exploring some mindfulness practices to help ground yourself?
Just wanted to drop by and remind you that everyone's path is different, and that's what makes life beautiful. Your feelings are valid, and it's okay to take time to process them. Keep moving forward at your own pace. You'll get to a place where you don't have to worry about anything, I believe in that
Every experience, no matter ho big or small, shapes us in so many meaningful ways, you CAN'T even imagine. Healing takes time (as all the other good things do, actually), and there's no set timeline for feeling better. It's okay to take things day by day, or even moment by moment
The greatest growth happens during our most challenging periods. Focus on gentle self-care practices that nurture your body AND spirit. Find comfort in simple pleasures, maybe, it's a warm cup of tea, soft music, or quiet moments of reflection. Create space for activities that bring you peace
Trust that this phase will pass, just like all others before it. Stay connected with supportive people who understand and respect your journey. Let nature be your teacher, observe how seasons change and flow. That's how feeling work as well. I KNOW it's hrd to belive in that right now but trust me youll get thorugh everything 🙏
@Wendy J that's such a beautiful thing and i 100% agree. the most beautiful thing is nothing stays the same forever. change is the only constant. the sun always rises, even after the darkest night. keep moving forward, and you will see it
Darling, it's just the start of the year! Yeah, it may be rough right now, bt that doesn't mean that it will be like this for the rest of the year, promise! Everything can change for the better every second. Just believe in that. Everything you're feeling is part of being human, even diamonds need pressure to form. These challenging times often lead to the most beautiful transformations. Let your heart guide you. What creative outlets help you express your emotions?
First, off, breathe in, breathe out. We all have times when everything feels like it's too much. About those anxiety waves, they're like uninvited guests, right? They just show up whenever they want. But you don't have to deal with them aloe. Sharing isn't "to much" at all. Everyone needs someone to talk to sometimes. And you're already doing something right, you're planning to see a doctor about your health concerns. That's really responsible of you. Instead of just worrying, you're taking action. Sleep problems can make everything else feel worse. But again, you've noticed it, and you can mention this to your doctor to. One step at a time. About feeling insecure, I wish I could tell you how mny people feel exactly the same way. Even the most confident-looking people have these feelings. It doesn't make it easier, but you're not alone in this. Family stuff is tough because we can't just walk away from it. It's okay to feel upset about it. It's okay to take some space when you need it. But here's what I really want you to think about: it's only January. We have 11 more months ahead. Things can change so much in just a few weeks or months. Remember last year? I bt there were times when things felt bad but then got better. That's how life works, it goes up and down. The fact that you're worried about things shows that you care about your life and want things to be better. That's actually a good thing. This is just the beginning of the year. There's still so much time for things to get better.
Tomorrow brings new possibilities! Please don't give up on this year just yet, give it some time, it'll all work out ❤️🌱
unfortunately, i get the whole family-not-getting-me thing. my parents are super strict, like, next level strict. they want to know where i am 24/7, and i have to share my location with them all the time. it's honestly suffocating 4 me. they have this thing where they compare me to literally every other kid they know. like, "oh, look at her, she's doing so well in college" or "why can't you be more like your friends?" it drives me crazy because i'm trying my best
the worst part is probably the constant pressure about grades and career choices. they basically planned my whole life without even asking what i want. they're pushing me to become a doctor, but that's not even what i'm interested in. and don't even get me started on dating! they act like having a boyfriend/girlfriend is the worst crime ever. i can't even hang out with friends of the opposite gender without them getting all suspicious
it just drives me crazy, that's it
idk your situation, but just wanted to share mine. anyway, do you ming sharing what problem do you have w/ your family? maybe i can help or figure a ways to make it better who knows
I have heath anxiety myself, the best thing you can do right now is to stop looking things up online. I know it's super tempting, but Dr. Google is not your friend when you're feeling anxious about your health. It's good that you're going to see a real doctor in February. That's the right way to handle this. Until then, try to stay away from medical websites. Trust me, I know how hard it is not to overthink everything, but remember that our minds can play tricks on us when we're anxious
@Linda F. couldn't have said it better! Have you tried doing something else when you feel the urge to google symptoms? I started watching funny videos or calling a friend instead. Also, it's totally normal to feel worried about your health, but trying to diagnose yourself usually leads to unnecessary panic
OP, just hang in there until your doctor's appointment. They're the ones who can give you real answers and proper help 🙌
@Linda F. HAHA same here! Speaking of spouses, mine actually set up parental controls on some of medical sites because I was getting so obsessed. Embarrassing but kinda hilarious? The funny thing is, ever since I stopped googling every little symptom, most of my "deadly diseases" mysteriously disappeared
Like, who would've thought that my "brain tumor" was actually just me needing new glasses? 🤓 The mind is wild!
@Linda F. okay but can we talk about how GBBO is literally the most soothing show ever? No drama, just pure wholesome content and people being nice to each other while making cakes. Way better than those medical shows that had us thinking a papercut could lead to instant death
I actually started baking because of it, and even though my cakes look like they were made during an earthquake, at least focusing on recipes keeps me from WebMD-ing myself into oblivion. Plus, my coworkers don't mind being my guinea pigs (probably because free cake is free cake, even if it's lopsided) 🧁
@samde2491 omg yes! Those funny cat videos are literally my lifeline when I'm spiraling 😅 I used to be SO bad with health anxiety, like, I'd convince myself I had the rarest conditions ever just because my pinky toe felt weird or something. Now I have this rule where I'm only allowed to watch silly animal videos when I start feeling that way. Last night I spent two hours watching pandas falling off slides and honestly? Best therapy ever! My husband thinks I'm completely bonkers but whatever works, right? 🐼
@samde2491 PARENTAL CONTROLS ON WEBMD I'M DYING 💀 That's actually genius though? My search history used to be so dark, I'm pretty sure I was on some kind of watchlist. Remember those medical shows we used to binge watch? I had to quit cold turkey because I kept diagnosing myself with everything they mentioned. One episode about hiccups had me convinced I needed emergency surgery. Now I just watch Great British Bake Off LOL 🍰
Listen, sometimes life throws everything at us at once and it feels like drowning. Your body is probably reacting to all the stress right now. Physical symptoms during stressful periods are super common. Getting medical help is smart, at least you'll know what you're dealing with. Maybe try keeping track of when these anxiety waves hit? Could help spot patterns in the future