I tried to fix life many times, but i just can’t. I’m very tired. I lowkey just want to lie down to sleep and never wake up in the morning. I’m breaking every day a little more when I read the news. how can we make this shit happen all around the globe, literally burn our planet, and keep going on as usual? I look at people younger than me on the subway smiling, laughing. I want to be like them, to stop caring, let it all go to hell. but I can’t. I’ve been doing activism for 3 years, and for what? now I can’t do even that… I thought we were going to make a difference, but now I feel like I’m one insignificant human, too small to influence any important decisions. i should get a proper job, but every time I browse through current jobs they’re all meaningless… i need to be doing something good in this life, and not just get up each morning and do things on autopilot. Sometimes I think the only thing that keeps me from dying is my cat lol. I know i’ll never be able to harm myself, when it comes to physical pain i’m a coward. this makes me feel even more pathetic.

sorry, I needed to put this into words

I am 30 year old, female gynaecologist from India having very frequent thoughts of my entire life being a waste with no hope of improvement in future

I feel like I forgot to take some train and now I am just stuck on this nowhere land

I am single, with literally no friends to talk to, I stay with my parents but I dont wish to speak to them either, mostly wasting my time on phone just killing time because I have nothing else to do and I feel pathetic about it

I have been a brilliant student having finished my obgyn residency by age of 27 post which I have been working but never felt that I am doing so at my full potential

Both personally and professionally I feel I am just a failure , I hate the fact that I am not able to love myself, I may not be a problem but why do I feel that while world even my parents think that I am not good enough to get married just because I am short heighted,, dark skinned and now getting old too.

All my life I feel I have in a way tried to compensate over these things by my academic performance even which seems to have been not good enough now

I don't know how to start appreciating and loving myself again

How to make things happen both personally and professionally instead of just sitting and waiting for smthing good to happen and for someone to come and save this damsel in distress .

If you have read this, I don't know if I am making any sense but I know I am not alone out there feeling like this but I very well know this is not a good feeling and I don't want to go through it , I don't want to blame my circumstances, my family and for that matter even God for my current position

I've been working at my current job for three years now. Initially, everything was fine, but lately it feels like I'm just emotionally suffocating there. I wake up dreading going to work. My coworkers are decent people, but I've lost all desire to socialize. When I get home, I'm completely drained. I just stay in my bed and watch TV. My husband says I've become a completely different person. We used to go out a lot, hang out with friends, but now I can't muster the energy for any of it. I know that I need to make change, but I don't know where to start. Is this what they call a midlife crisis? Or could it be depression? How to get out of this?

As a sale specilist, my current work situation is causing me great distress. My confidence has taken a hit, and I find myself lacking interest in my job. I feel intimidated by those around me and overwhelmed by the workload. These emotions have left me feeling unmotivated and useless, and I even start ti think that I's stupid.

To try and alleviate some of this stress, I took a couple of days off. However, I couldn't fully enjoy my time off due to the overwhelming guilt I felt about the impact my absence may have had on my colleagues.

Although I would love to leave this job, I am unable to do so because of financial responsibilities and not wanting to disappoint my gf.