my friend and i were meeting today again
[explanation about why this second meet up but youre not forced to read for the 2nd part:
last time my friend told me she asked her teammates to see a movie w her and she complained that no one replied, while she did the same to me when i asked her to update me abt an exhibition she was interested in, to tell me if she she wanted me to come with her.
she ended up wanting to go to see this movie with me after no signs from them.
another point she likes to see movies in og dub and i prefer our country dub but i always adaptated to others, not other way around, i wonder if i can ask one day to make it my way
she told me the meet up should be 13h then changed for 13h30 at last minute, i asked many times if it was ok but said she will probably be late (as usual tbh) so i left but anticipated i should arrive later bc i know she wouldnt be there at the exact hour.
also important point, this day my mom pushed my buttons to the point i contemplated s*icide again, i almost wanted to cancel our hangout but i thought abt my friend first, i didnt want to be selfish and abandon her.
so i wait and at the end i waited for her until 16h, 3h in total.
so ofc i ate while waiting, she came and apologized many times but also added stuff like "you came too early" while it was the og plan.
we were supposed to see 2 movies but since she was late i said i only had time for 1 movie left, so i said its okay lets meet next week same day to see the other movie what do you think? update me abt this.]
so here we are:
next week, no news from her so i ask again is it okay for tomorrow, she replied she cant but the day after is ok. but i feel that if i didnt ask she wouldnt have warned me.
i accepted saying i was free for the afternoon, luckily for her i didnt plan anything else that day.
it was not for the movie tho but her audition at 2pm, 1h travel for me. i didnt wanna see this movie that much so its all good and i wanna support her so im up for it.
i woke up this morning and saw she sent a msg a 3am, so i was sleeping, saying she wanna meet up at 12h instead, but tbh i told her my availabilty would be later this day and ive been warned too late to change my plans, so i can only be there at 2pm.
ok ngl maybe ive could have been there at 12h but its not abt the time but the principle, i always adapt and wait for her and i wanted my free morning as i wanted.
then when im leaving to join her, she sent me a msg saying stuff like "but you told me you would directly wait me at cinema not audition" "but i told you to join me at 1pm 2 days ago"
we have literally the proof in the convo and these words were never ever said.
and actually she wasnt at the place at 12h as she wanted, so if i came i wouldve waited for her 2h.
im rly confused bc ive been gaslighted by the past and my friend doesnt seem like a manipulator, she just seems overwhelmed by her depression and probably mix up things idk.
by the past it already happened we communicated on the fact she accuse me of smth when she is the one that was wrong inventing infos, it always end well she admits her wrongs, we are never angry at each other its sane. but you know im wondering if im allowed to be done with that too tho
