I've been struggling with some stuff lately and I'm not sure what to do. I've been thinking about going to see a psychiatrist, but honestly, the idea of it really freaks me out. I mean, opening up about all the things going on in my head is pretty scary. So instead, I've just been looking things up online. I know it's not the same as getting help, but it feels safer, at least for now
The other day, I was watching some videos on YouTube, just trying to understand myself better. That's when I came across this video about BPD. So many of the things they were describing..it was like they were talking about me
I've always had trouble with relationships. One minute I'm super close to someone, and the next I'm pushing them away. My moods are all over the place too. I can be on top of the world one moment, and then something tiny happens and I'm down instantly
The video also talked about this feeling of emptiness and not really knowing who you are. That hit home too. I feel like I'm just playing different roles, trying to figure out which one fits. I've been doing this for years now, just trying to cope on my own. But lately, it's been getting harder. The ups and downs are more intense. I'm starting to worry about how it's affecting my life
I guess what I'm really wondering is..has anyone else here gone through something similar? Did you end up seeing a psychiatrist? If so, what was it like? I'm still really nervous about the idea. I don't know, maybe I'm just overthinking all of this
