love issues in my life

Hi I'm feeling depressed so much mein itni jyada pareshan hu ki mujhe samajh nhi aa rha kya kru I have a boyfriend or Mein use pichle 8 saal se janti hu or hum dono ko 2 saal ho gya h relationship main aaye hue relationship ke starting main 1 saal bhot acha tha humari baat 1-2 din baad hoti thi kyonki wo us time job krta tha to time nhi milta tha pr wo time nikalta tha 5 min hi shi or baat krta tha pr abhi issi saal se hum dono ke bich kuch thik nhi chal rha h ek to wo mere se baat nhi krta jaldi or reply nhi krta mein to bhi samjhti hu ki kaam ka family presure uske Ghar main kuch thoda bhot chalta rehta h mein usse itna pyar krti hu ki mein bta nhi skti or usse meri feelings ka pura pta h ki mein uske liye kya sochti hu but ab thodi si bhi ladai hoti h to gusse main basr baar bol deta khatam kr lo mein jese tese usko bol ke rok leti hu wo saaf kehta h ki ab mere andar koi dard koi pyar or koi feelings nhi h kisi ke liye or mujhe ye samajh nhi aata ki aesa kya ho gya h ki mere jane se bhi use koi fark nhi pad rha h wo pehle bilkul aesa nhi tha or ab mein use samjha ke thak gyi hu mein usse kuch bhi clear puchti hu to wo meri baato ka bhot ghuma ghuma ke jawab deta h breakup Krna 1 sec main bhot aasan h pr mere ye chiz hogi nhi kyonki ek insan ko pichle 8 saal se chahna or 1 min main uske sath sab khatam kr kese bhool jau agar wo mujhe chod dega to meri halt kya hogi mujhe pta h mein already ek overthinkar hu or ab bhot jyada darti hu is chiz se mein ek dam sadme main hu or mere iske releted ajeeb se sapne aate h mein sach main usse bhot jyada pyar krti hu please koi advice de jisse mein hum dono ke bich sab thik kr sku wo future ko le kr itna ajeeb ho gya h ki wo bs yhi nolta h ki mujhe apna career chahiye or bhot Sara pesa kma sku bs mujhe or kuch nhi chahiye ek baar shaadi ki baat ho gyi to usne kha ki mein shaadi to apne Ghar walo ki marzi se karunga or agar tumhara liye mene baat bhi ki to wo syd Mane bhi na wo hum dono ke future ko le kr sour nhi h jab ki jab hum dono ka relationship start hone wala tha to hi mene use bol Diya ki mein serious relationship chahti hu mere sath time paas mt Krna or usne kha bhi ki haa pr ab situation aesi j ki kya kru kuch samajh nhi aa rha please help me please hath jod rhi hu nhi to mein sach main mar jaungi uske Bina kya hoga Mera mein khud nhi janti please help