my 11 year relationship may be over

So my boyfriend FaceTime me and told me that we have to talk about when he moves and I told him that I had absolutely no intention of moving to North Carolina then he said if that was the case then he’s not sure about us as a couple and I said, maybe I’m not sure either I said I was sorry and I can’t help how I feel. He called me back and I said the same thing. That I can’t help how I feel and he said he would call me back tomorrow. I’m happy that I said how I felt but at the same time I feel terrible because I never want to hurt anyone especially since I was his first girlfriend and we’ve been together for 11 years. I can’t help how I feel and I want to make a decision for myself. I feel terrible that I was thinking about myself, but I can’t do something that makes me unhappy. Am I a monster?