i kinda tried not to cry in front of them, but once again my family excluded me and it's starting to be very hurtful.
it had been weeks i suggested to watch together a saga of 5 movies, no one ever replied, or they acted like yeye you're bothering. and today i learned they watched it without me while i was at work (my sister and mom don't work).
i expressed it wasn't cool, no reacts again. it's not just about this situation, it just reminded me all the shitty moves like that they did to me:
-last time when it was my birthday i've once again not been honored correctly. first unlike them there was no preparation or even just a restaurant proposed. i made my day all alone and no one asked about it. (my mom almost forgot to wish me if my sister didn't and to that day my sister always ask me what i want, told her i want an old game we can find easily for 2€ she never offered it.) my mom at least brought me a cake, i was like oh finally something nice, then she said "i saw your fav cake but i chose the other one, your sister's favorite" even my day can't be about me.
-we also celebrate days linked to our surnames. my sister and mom get even gifts and activities from me and others, while i never even get just wished. i talked about it in the past, my mom who's insisting that it's important to treat sibling the same, said "but you don't have a celebration" while it's also in the calendar.
-many times they went to movie without me instead of waiting the day after for me to join them, but when the opposite happened, my sister was working my mom said she was going alone to cinema without even proposing me while i was available.
-they don't really care about my interests when i talk about it unlike when it's my sister's. when my sister ask for food my mom is ok, she even just rn went to shop to buy her smth not even asking if i want smth. but when i ask politely for food she acts like i'm the meanest child. i wanna play with my sister but she only care when it's convenient to her or unless she has something to ask. my mom rolled her eyes when i was harassed. once i told my mom to stop crossing my boundaries i told her many times abt (she loses/breaks stuff in my room and lie about it) but just to rob me the victim role she started crying and my sister comforted her and she never apologized. they only care when i give money. to my mom i'm a difficult child because i don't let her be problematic, racist, misogynist in peace. my sister criticizes harmless behaviors i have while doing the same. they don't like me. i don't even try to confront them because either they dismiss me or make it about them. this should help me to leave the house but actually it's the opposite i wanna abandon everything and die.
