My friend always try to show that she is better than me

I feel like my friend is always showing me how successful she is, from being praised by potential employers to being well-known on campus, while I feel like I have nothing going for me. She knows about my struggles with my dysfunctional family and the abuse I endured from my brother growing up, but she keeps telling me I need to "level up" and change for the better. I do want to improve myself and not let my past hold me back, but it's tough when my emotions get the best of me.

During our conversation today, she talked about cutting people off after college who don't want to grow and change like she does, and I felt like it was directed at me. I know friends are supposed to motivate each other, but it feels like I'm always under her microscope, and every time I fail at something, she talks about cutting people off.

This constant scrutiny is really hurting my self-esteem, even though I try my best to better myself every day. I just wish she could be more understanding and supportive instead of making me feel like I'm not good enough.