My list of women and my loss

I read a post on this site about a guy having a lot of girls...oooh! how I want to warn him with my situation...and at the same time ask for advice..... I like girls, and girls like me) and it's a pity to "miss my chance". All the more so because girls "go into my arms". I don't do much and do not do anything...everyone gets acquainted and invites me to visit...And I started to "recruit" my circle of girls...like the guy in the post below (Hi, fellow misfortune). At first I was just excited...I could go to different girls' houses on different days...awesome!!!! At first I was just excited...I could go on different days, go visit different girls...awesome!!!! Then I added more girls to my list... I wanted them to be all different types, ages. I lied to everyone. Shamelessly. After that, I had to make a calendar of visits, because the girls started to take offense that I wasn't around much. It was no longer a pleasure, but a "must".There were over 10 in total and I decided to make several groups : for frequent and non-private communication. Things got better. By this point I realized how hard it is with people when there are a lot of them! Girls were also writing a lot, and I didn't have time to answer them. And they took offense. So I spent a week on correspondence. Then I felt like a "copywriter" and gave it up. As a successful manager who had already bragged to everyone that there were "tons of girls", I couldn't "give up my position". I made an agreement with my sister (who is also a girl) to answer to "my brigade" while I was busy. I promised my sister chocolate and the rest of the joys of food. The first week everything was great!!! sister coped...But there were minuses - I did not know the nuances of correspondence (no time to read it was) and hard piercing...girls began to think that I have a bad memory...began to write more often...sister asked for more "payment". And here also gifts should be given at least sometimes to girls...and went to my expenses. Then came more problems - girls started to get used to me and started to miss me and want to see me more often. Some of them thought that I was their property and demanded an account of where I was and with whom. I decided to "fire" them. But that was not the case. One of them started following me around. That's when my "failures" started. Somehow, the "fired girl" guessed that there was another one ("ha-ha just one," I thought). Then I didn't realize how it came out, but within a month that girl had "outed" almost my entire women's brigade. They formed a group and started to become "friends", discussing when and with whom I was with, as well as what and to whom I lied. I didn't know and behaved as usual. At that stage, the girls were "competing" to see who I would choose. Then they argued and chaos ensued...I experienced it very painfully. every "throwing tantrums" and being jealous and stalking me. It was impossible to give them up. I "sold" a few of them to my buddies. Tired and depressed, I had a fight with my sister and she joined their "camp". I am ashamed to write about my defeat. But I stayed with one girl, who did not fight with anyone, wrote to me rarely, and was carried away by her career. I'm so devastated, I'm ashamed, and I don't know what I've been doing wrong, where I've been leading women wrong.....