There's alot in my mind lately. It's about those time of my childhood when I was bit of neglected in my neighborhood. I was the youngest among them all and wasn't good in running or the games we played. Whenever we played a game I was the last one to be selected
Being yelled by them if I didn't performed well while playing.
I get that... was my fault. Maybe I didn't tried enough?
I was the person being joked upon or called names as of a tag being "Friends". But when I did the same they used to be offended or mad?
Do I used to overreact like it's what friends did right? Joked around?
As years passed we grew older and two of them was in the same coaching I was in.
As one time me and one of the student there were arm wrestling.
He came there and telling the other that things about me and all.
I ignored him whereas that student was awakward.
I can't seem to fight against them..
I can handle others if they did but not the people from my childhood.
Few months ago he talked with me regarding something in school infront of his friend I felt awakward and I ignored him.
But during the PE period there were some classmates saying things and all to me. I would have easily handled them but I became scared all of a sudden. Scared that again I will be that small girl who isn't able to do anything.
After school I cried. I felt so weak and hated myself for that.
It's like so many emotions and questions that arises
